Sunday, 21 September 2008

• Currently Listening Sex And The City: Music From the Original Motion Picture By Original Soundtrack see related

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  I've gone to start writing a new post numerous times now, but there's been so much going through my head I haven't known where to start.  I'm just going to type and hope it comes out somewhat coherent.

  Three weeks in the grand scheme of things seems like such a short period of time, but that's what are class blocks are scheduled out as.  Every three weeks we have a final and most of the time a practical...so every three weeks we're stressed out about that.  You had better hope your monthly cycle doesn't fall in the same week.  That is HELL.  Anyway...my point in all of that is that 3 weeks, even though it seems really short, is actually a pretty good chunk of time when you relate it to things here at this school.  This school is kind of renowned for being a pretty crazy place.  Mix a shot of boredom from being in a small town with a splash of artistic personality, add a twist of career changers thrown into a college environment and pour over fresh out of high school brats into a glass rimmed with financial instability and you've got a pretty potent cocktail known as the CIA.  I'm not saying this place is bad...it's just that things here change SO FAST that you're forced to change WITH it or be left behind. With this comes growth, but growth HURTS sometimes.  I remember when we were younger my little brother used to cry all night long because his knees would hurt him so bad and the doctor always attributed it to growing pains.  Well, even at 25, we can have growing pains...I'm proof of that.  Sometimes I have cried into the wee hours of the morning.  Sometimes self discovery reveals some of the ugliest parts of us.  That's a GOOD thing, because as things are revealed, they can be changed, but realizing these things can be one of the most painful things.  At times recently I have felt like my life has been spinning out of control only to realize that God has been right in the middle of it acting as my axis.  He's been teaching me a lot about grace and unmerited favor lately; both things I've know about in my head since I can remember, but it has become so much more of a reality to me as of late.  There is nothing I can do to make God love me any more or any less.  It doesn't matter WHAT I do...God is still there and He still cares for me like a father cares for his child.  There have been times where I knew I shouldn't necessarily be doing something, or I was in a place that people would think was absolutely horrid and I've felt God's love and mercy for me like I've never felt it before.  God is amazing.  I'm falling more and more in love with Him every day and it seems to be in the most unconventional ways. 

  I wish I was better with words because this isn't even touching the iceberg of what I want to convey.

  Now for the random portion of this post:

  It totally smells like burnt rubber in my dorm right now...what's up with that?

  I'm listening to the greatest CD ever...it's only great because it comes from the greatest MOVIE ever.  Yes I watch Sex and the City.  Yes, I love it.  YES, you should get over it.  It's my thing; deal with it.

  For my loyal readers...you probably have my cell phone number.  My cell phone was off for about a month, but I've been able to turn it back on, so PLEASE, HIT ME UP!  I've been absolutely DYING without it and without being able to hear your lovely voices. 

  Anywho...love you all.  Thanks for being my friends. :)

   

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